There was a time when she felt far from being
ready to abandon the Maharishi. She eventually reached the stage where she felt
a deep disquiet whenever she came close to him and met his eyes, and finally
there were some last straw incidents that pushed her into completely giving up her involvement with him and his movement.
There are some familiar elements and a few coincidences
in what she tells us, and some of the material is useful for adding to the
store of information about how and why people leave cults and what happens to
them afterwards.
The course in Italy
Everything came to a head when the Maharishi
hand picked some people to go on a course of advanced teachings that was to be
held in Italy, in the Dolomites. By then, he was charging selected followers hefty
amounts for the privilege of learning special techniques.
Joyce Collin-Smith was one of the followers
he ordered to go on the course. She felt hijacked, forced into attending.
This was the last course she ever went on. There
was a last straw moment or two; the Maharishi went too far and she just
couldn’t take any more.
For starters, she realised that he was
teaching and presiding over magical practices; not only that, the rituals were very
unsafe and undesirable for westerners.