There is a little more of the same to report,
including a very recent nightmare journey that had an unexpected but very
welcome ending.
More electrical malfunctions
Tills have recently behaved strangely when it
was my turn to pay. Although they worked for the customer immediately in front of
me, one went crazy and had to be reset and the other refused to function at all
so the girl on it had to move to another station.
It is interesting that Joyce Collin-Smith
says that her friend, the one who could make events turn out to good advantage for herself and her circle, caused problems with electrical apparatus.
Some minor disappointments
It is quite a while since I have had what I
think of as a good day. Most of the misfortunes are too petty to report, but a
long string of tiny setbacks makes me feel that I am living under a cloud.
On several occasions I have made special a
trip to a particular shop I remembered only to find that it had closed
down. I took some unwanted items to my
favourite charity shop only to find that they were not accepting donations on
that day.
These things have their funny side: I
remembered seeing a stall in an indoor shopping centre where they repair
watches, so took mine there to have a new battery put in. The watch repair man said
he wouldn't do it because it would involve taking the back off and unscrewing
things!
These are all very trivial problems; things
could be and have been much worse. Not only that: a bad day had a good ending.
Unexpected assistance
I made some bad decisions a few days ago.
I decided to visit a shopping area I like. I
saw some notices about bus diversions because of a sporting event but assumed,
wrongly, that this would just mean a minor change of route.
It was also a mistake to go there at the
busiest time of the week. I did not enjoy my visit, all the more as I found
that many of the independent shops I favour had closed down.
My journey back was disrupted because the
buses were terminating their journeys prematurely. I didn’t know this at the
time, but demonstrators were causing extra problems with their march and many
roads were closed off. I managed to get quite close to home by taking three
different buses, but then I had to walk. It was very tiring and I soon reached
the end of my resources.
I eventually arrived at my block, only to
find a group of men sitting on the steps. This was all I needed!
I know that distress signals attract
predators and I was afraid that there might be trouble. I thought that they
might be angry at having to make way for me, or even try to push in through the
door behind me. This is not paranoia: we have been having a lot of trouble with
unpleasant people and intruders recently.
I then noticed that although they looked quite
tough, they didn’t look very alarming. They were all young and quite
respectable looking. Better yet, the exact opposite of what I had feared happened:
they apologised for being in my way, and one of them helped me get my shopping
up the steep steps and manouevre it through the front door, which he carefully
closed behind me. I let them know how very grateful I was for this help.
After having a reviving cup of tea, I went
online to investigate the travel problems and learned that young far-right
extremists who clashed with the police and their opponents were responsible for
much of the disruption to the bus services. Perhaps those helpful young men had
been involved in the violent protests!
Cause and effect
Inner states are often responsible for outer
events. Our old friend the Maharishi Yogi maintained that meditation could
change outer circumstances for the better.
I am sure that the string of minor
misfortunes and lack of good days I have been experiencing for many months is
a result of the chronic stress and depression caused by my ongoing battle with
the bureaucrats in the local council.
Having been in the company of energy vampires
is another possible cause of various kinds of trouble. They can have a
blighting and sabotaging effect on vulnerable people’s affairs, and it is not
always possible to avoid them.
I attribute the very recent bad decisions to not
feeling well after having just been to another meeting with my neighbours in
connection with the above-mentioned battle. Although these meetings are very
draining and there is a lot of bad energy around, I have to go as confidential
matters not suitable for emails are discussed.
So why the good ending?
These explanations make sense, but not when
we come to the unexpected help. My overloaded state made me vulnerable; surely
I should have attracted and been attacked by unpleasant people!
Perhaps a good memory that suddenly came into
my mind influenced external events and protected me.
As I was getting near to my block, I was
thinking of a previous occasion when I returned from that same shopping area. I
brought something very heavy back with me to avoid paying a delivery charge. It
was a bad decision. I took on too much; I became exhausted. However, people
were very helpful on the journey home, and as I arrived at my block someone
came out at exactly the right time to help me and hold the door open. I had
been feeling delighted with my wonderful bargain on the journey home. Perhaps
my good feelings attracted help and protected me from predators.
Perhaps it was this good memory and my gratitude for the assistance after
the first difficult journey home brought - or bought - me some more of the same
just when I needed it.
More misfortunes to come?
The battle with the local council will
continue for some time; I will have to go to more meetings with people I would
normally avoid; there will be much more stress and uncertainty, bad feeling and
negativity to endure.
At least I have a good idea of what to expect
in the way of small misfortunes, and I will try to avoid making more bad decisions.
I am trying very hard to earn more assistance
and protection too.
